Why is it when I’m completely disappointed with someone (this time a business associate), all I want to do is tell them off; whine to everyone who will listen; devise an evil punishment; and call them unmentionable names? Do you think it’s because, in the moment it gives one a sense of control! The sense that at least there’s something we can do! I also wondered if these feelings are always lurking in and grumpily roaming about in our “dark side” , just waiting for a chance to pounce.
My dearly departed Mother ‘s take on life was: “There’s always something to torture a soul.” Her and Dorothy Parker would have been great friends as Dorothy’s quote “What fresh hell is this?” is a favourite of mine.
It took a giant step to go out for a walk and instead of turning blue in the face, I inhaled the beauty all around me. I am going to call this giant step “a walking meditation” as I was so focused on nature, I momentarily forgot how ticked off I was; but “hey,” whatever happened to “a promise is a promise!’ Sorry but the “dark side” couldn’t help itself ! What’s the name of the song Rag ‘n’ Bone Man sings ? Oh right—Human!
Here is a picture I’d like to share with you because this tree was bending under the weight of the fruit but was managing to stay upright until the lemons finished ripening. That’s exactly what I was attempting to do as I waited, and waited, and waited…..Did I happen to mention I was waiting?
Once home again, calmer but with abounding energy, I scrubbed the shower in a frenzy, cleaned the fixtures and then made myself a cup of peppermint & green tea to take to the lanai as I waited…..oops not supposed to repeat words….
I will reach out one more time and then if no resolution, as they say in Newfoundland “the arse will come out of ‘er” (in Nova Scotia lingo that means “the sh— will hit the fan”).